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My 2010 Resolutions

2010-01-13T21:05:00.002+08:00

My 2010 Resolutions

I know it’s a little late but thought it’ll be good to “pen” it down anyway.

1) Be able to go back to church.

2) Keep my room clean and tidy.

3) Sleep before 1am/ at least 8 hours of sleep.

4) Exercise at least twice a week and have healthy diet.

5) Start and stay happy working.

6) Be more hard working and practice my daily skincare regime.

7) Be a better person/daughter/girlfriend/friend.

8) Be able to save 10% of my monthly pay.

9) Reward myself with a short trip overseas this year.

10) Spend more time with my family and sunny the fatty dog.

11) Control my spending, though I’ve been doing it well so far.

12) Revamp my room.

13) Be on time/early for work, bad habit to be late.

14) Update this blog as much as possible.

15) Start and finish my doggie jigsaw puzzles.

16) Bring Sunny out as much as possible.

17) Learn to curb my little temper that have been improving.

18) Learn to have more confidence in my parking skills.

19) Do volunteer work, touch hearts with God’s name.

20) Be more filial to my parents and grandparents.

21) Lose weight, at least 5 to 8kg!!!!!

22) Shower no later than 10pm.

So there you are, maybe I’ll do an evaluation after half a year and see how well I’ve done by then!!

Grad grad!!!

2009-11-13T02:37:00.003+08:00

After slogging for more than a month, finally I'm done with exams.
Really really worked so hard for the exams..
Hopefully my efforts will be paid off..
Then I'll graduate and be out in the working force by Jan of next year.
But before getting and perm job i need to get back to my part time for now.
I'd rather be busy like mad than stay at home and do nothing..
So I'm going back to the Vet tomorrow and hope to get the job assignment for ACCA (hopefully not to late), which would be a good stepping stone to RELC i guess..

Counting down to my quarter decade crisis : 14 Days!

Anxious

2009-10-12T03:56:00.003+08:00

I was chatting with HD (1 of my poly bestie) just now
Telling him about my fears in my comeing exam
He kept encouraging me as usual and
Told me to tell myself "I CAN DO IT!"

I was doing my not very quiet, "quiet time" at the same time, reading "The Vine"
Today's article was on "Anxiousness"

When You Feel Anxious (1)
Do not be anxious about anything...
Philippians 4:6 NIV
Anxiety starts as a trickle then creates a channel in our mind through which all our thoughts begin to flow. Most of our anxieties fall into three categories:

1) Anxiety about things we all face: like aging, disability, retirement, loneliness, financial uncertainty, accidents, illness, losing a loved one, and death.

2) Anxiety about things we all must do: like making decisions, starting and ending relationships, losing weight, changing careers, making a mistake.

3) Anxiety reflecting our inner state of mind: These anxieties reveal how we feel about our ability to handle things. For example, fear of rejection can affect every relationship in your life.

In order to avoid being hurt you shut others out, your world grows smaller and your opportunities for personal growth are more limited.
Many of our anxieties can be reduced to one question, "What if I can't handle it?" Your mind is the battlefield where victory is won or lost.

So ask yourself, "Would I still be anxious if I knew for certain I could handle anything that came up?" The answer is no. Anxiety can't immobilise you and steal your joy when you know you can handle whatever happens.

You say, "That sounds too simple." Not when you bring God into the picture! Here are two great anxiety eliminating Scriptures you can stand on when times are tough:

1) "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13 NKJV).

2) "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds" (Philippians 4:6-7 NIV).

Seems like God is using HD to speak to me, and letting me see "light" with today's read..
No matter what i wanna thank HD for his encouragement!!
And hopefully we can meet up with the rest soon!!

Rebuild or Vanish?

2009-10-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

"Trust is like a sand castle. It takes a long time to build it but it takes just ONE mistake to destroy it. When it is destroyed, either it takes a extremely long time to rebuild it or it will vanish forever."

To Rebuild or Vanish?

Don't Keep Your Love In A Box!

2009-10-07T04:08:00.008+08:00

Don't Keep Your Love In A Box!

http://www.thevine.co.nz/word/archive/2009/10/07

You will not always have the "Special" person with you.

Have you ever wonder if you have done enough to show/tell the person how important he/she is to you?

Will you put in 200% effort to think of how the cheer the person up when you made them upset?

Will you do anything to amend what you have done, starting from the underlying reason?

Will you do all the lame and stupid things just to see that person smile?

Will you think hard to recall how well you understand or know that person?

Acts of love and kindness are usually not about doing great things, but about doing small things with great love.

If you think good things about someone, tell them. Go out of your way to fill their lives with joy while there's still time. Those expressions of appreciation, those words of forgiveness, that special gift you've had in mind, give it while you can. Don't keep your love in a box!

If your answer is Yes to the questions above, then make the effort to do whatever you can. Sorry don't often do the trick. So "Show your heart"! Give your best when you still can!

Don't allow yourself to have any regrets, cherish when you have the chance, when you will have them!

Our Dearest Parsley

2009-10-05T02:38:00.006+08:00

Our Dearest Parsley...

I still remember how mad mum was when i bought Sunny home. She was not only worried about house keeping issues with animals at home, but she was also worried that i would get so affected when my pets pass on. Soon she blamed me even more, because she knows that one day when Sunny leaves us for "Doggy Heaven", she would be as heart broken as i am.

Since i've got into the line of animal care. i've grown attached to the "Kids" at the clinic. I look forward to seeing them every working day, and they are also my motivation. They were the ones who never fails to show how happy and how appreciative they were to us by wagging their little tails.

Mid this year our Dearest Piggy left us. I still remember Joyce telling us that he insisted in sharing a cage with Parsley the night before he left. He departure was so sudden. But i wasn't there.

Today (4th Oct 09) Parsley too left us.I was trying so hard to hold back my tears, but i fail, while talking to Sam. I guess it was harder for Sam, she had to see her leave. Yet again i wasn;t at the clinic. Parsley's departure was an expected one but we didn't know it was so soon. We know she hasn't been at her best of health, due to her age and her days or being a farm dog.

I'm having mixed feelings. I can't bear to let her go, but yet i know she'll be happier and free from any pain. Although she's gone, but she'll be in our hearts. We'll say our last goodbyes to her and "send" her to "Doggy Heaven". I can't explain how heartbroken i am now, perhaps only with my tears.

The picture: Parsley "looking up" in the sky at Bishan Park.

no more babies

2009-09-01T21:36:00.001+08:00

My hamsters gave birth to hammie babies..
But all of them died..
Probably they are 1st time mummies that's y the deaths..

Encourage Someone Today

2009-08-21T01:21:00.003+08:00

I remember someone saying a few days ago that there's no need to praise someone when he/she did well becos ppl will see it for themselves, but instead you gotta pin point the bad/wrong doings..

I totally disagree with it but, didn't speak up at that point when i heard it, cos i din wan to make the situation worse..

Now, I have something to share with u all..

From The Vine " Encourage Someone Today"

If a man's gift is... Encouraging, let him encourage...
Romans 12:6-8 NIV

There's no better exercise for strengthening your heart than stooping to lift somebody else. Think about it: your best friends are the ones who encourage you. Who wants to hang around somebody who always puts you down?

Comments: Totally agree to this.. Seriously!! Why would u wan to hang out or even be near to someone who puts ppl down.. N what kind of person does the person make out to be??

Dr Maxwell Maltz interviewed the son of a successful businessman. The boy had refused to take over the family business after his dad's death, even though it would've made him wealthy. He explained, "You don't understand the relationship I had with my father. He was a driven man who came up the hard way. His objective was to teach me self-reliance and he thought the best way to do it was never to encourage or praise me. Every day we played catch in the yard. The idea was for me to catch the ball ten straight times. I'd catch it eight or nine times, but always on that tenth throw he'd do everything possible to make me miss it. He'd throw it on the ground or over my head, so I'd no chance of catching it." He then paused tearfully and said, "That's why I have to get away; I want to catch that tenth ball!"
This young man grew up feeling he could never measure up, never be perfect enough to please his father.

Sound familiar? William James said, The deepest principle in human nature is the craving to be appreciated." Most of us think wonderful things about people, but we never tell them. Praise becomes valuable only if you impart it. So, today go out of your way to encourage somebody.

So common ppl lets be nice and encourage someone today.. Let them know how great they are!!
It'll make their day, as well as yours!!! =)

God Bless!!

The Many Happenings

2009-08-19T23:58:00.005+08:00

Many things have had happened recently..
There are good, as well as bad stuffs..

School - Good
I realised that i kinda like studying now..
Which is a good thing i feel, esp when i'm in my final sem of studies
My project works have all been done seriously and on time..
That gives me the "i know what i'm doing" feeling
Hopefully i'll graduate by the end of this coming year end and get a full-time job asap

Relationship/Family - Good
Still as strong as ever with Dumbo of cos
Happy Family with funny, cute, fat dog & hamsters..
Thank God for blessing me with everything!!

Myself - Good
Healthy but getting old..
Well i have learnt to take things easier than before..
Seemed to have more control of my life now..
Alot happier, more cheerful!!

Volleyball - Good & Bad
Hmm.. Finally we played as a team and we won our opponent that we have lost to before
We have also improved quite alot since 2 years ago..
But something happened which is kinda bad.. Not gonna mention names though
And i think its really a misunderstanding la..
(and i think seems like it has already a big talking point in the "vball world")
Hopefully no bad feelings btw them..
Left with abt 2 more games le.. just want to end it with a good note
Honestly, i do have thoughts of leaving the team so many times be4
For various reasons.. but all are personal ones..
Now the thoughts are coming back..
Not becos i don't get to play as much as others
Not becos i'm unhappy with things goin on in the team
But i feel my skills, stamina, aches and pains are keeping me from playing competitive-competitive.. old liao le.. seriously got difference lo..
I would prefer to play either leisure or at most leisure-competitive
My definition of leisure-competitive is gathering a few good friends playing in a team which really just enjoy playing.. enjoying each other's company.. lose games also nvm.. happy can le..
Ok.. long story short wat i mean is i'm not confident in keeping up with my current team..
Haven't really made up my mind yet la.. dono what will happen yet..

Missing the doggies & kitties at Defu, they are all at boarding now
We're fogging the clinic every night for abt a week i think to get rid of the pests

Generally, i'm quite happy with everything now!!
And its all God's doings!!
Always remember this verse
"You will pray to him; and he will hear you."
Job 22:27

Insignificant to Smiles

2009-08-06T01:35:00.004+08:00

Have u often find urself insignificant to ppl ard you?

Have been feeling that for awhile le..

I'm not upset but maybe a lil down?? I dono..

But i know i'm not happy with school & volleyball now..

Feel so drained with stuffs that i can't express it through words..

But i'm glad to have real friends who still care abt me.. like Bren, Nanying who warms my heart..

They r the onces who checked on me often without me knowing (shows that they care, i believe there are many more friends who does that)

I have God, Dumbo, Sunny, Mummy to "niam" to.. =)

NY wants me to tell myself that i don't deserve to go thru such stuffs..

N i shld be happy n know that i have so many love ones to share my happiness with!!

Even if i do fall in the darkness, don't be afraid cos i'm nearer to the end from where i've started..

Btw i'm pin pointing no one here really.. Anyone who have read the post pls don't think otherwise ya..

Feel so much better =)

Back to the TONS of school work i have on hand.. damn saddening la..

Bleah...

Something to share...

More of us are persuaded into believing for too little than believing for too much. Vision is essential for survival. And a God-given vision is conceived by faith, sustained by prayer and fuelled by God's Word. It's not about what you can do, but what God can do with your life when it's fully surrendered to Him. It encompasses things outside the realm of the predictable, the safe, and the expected. "Where there is no vision, the people perish" (Proverbs 29:18 AMP). If God has given you a vision; pursue it, and believe Him for great things!

Losers

2009-08-04T02:04:00.005+08:00

Yet another defeated friendly.. this time its with SMU
Nobody to blame but ourselves for making so many mistakes
No 1st ball, lousy serves, inconsistent attacks, weak defence
Oh well.. we just gotta learn from our mistakes
Coach said that we are of different level from SMU
But i beg to differ.. We just did not play as well as usual

Opens starts next week
Hope we won't play too badly
Though our opposing teams are quite strong

SIM is really pissing me off
Change of schedule again and again, twice since a month ago
Now my Thursday's lesson have been shifted to Saturdays
Hate to disrupt the working schedule at Defu, so i have no choice but to work lesser
Which means lesser income
Hopping to take up tuition again to earn a lil more

Learnt something from Daily Bread today
"Being Glad; Thankfulness finds something good in every circumstance"

And and and!!!
Its Daddy's 49th Birthday!!
"Happy Birthday Dad!!"

CRAZY AUGUST

2009-08-03T02:27:00.004+08:00

Its gona be a CRAZY AUGUST this year!!

School/Local lectures officially starts
Tons of revisions to do
Researches of projects
Project deadlines to meet (haven't started on any yet!!.. so dead)
Project meetings (many many)
Working @ Defu Vet 3 days a Week ($$, Doggies, Kitties)
Volleyball Trainings (Both SIM & Alliance)
Pesta Sukan (Deadly Groupings)
Bills to clear (so broke)
Collection of purchases
Handful of events
Geok Choo's Wedding
Daddy's Birthday
Messy room to pack (Throw throw throw)

God Bless me!!

I've got a mini dumbo named "dumbie" from boyfriend today =) *sweets*

Clinic Kids

2009-05-15T12:59:00.019+08:00

Gonna plan something for Joyce's farewell.. Have been trying to get more snappies of the PRs in the clinic, to develop and make a scrapbook for her.. Dad have also passed me my planned gift for her.. Hope the scrap book will turn out well.. (i'm not very artsy & crafty)

Sneak Snappies of our cutie PRs:
(not all of them live in the clinic though)

"Batman"

"Parsley"

"Joe"

"Skye"

"Troy"

"Pudding"

"Poopy"

"Piggy" (Left for Doggie Haven)

"Jewel"

"Potty"

"Possom"

That sums up our lovely friends!!

Darns!! I only realised that day that we are paying $92 SGD for ONLY ONE top for Alliance.. I really dono if i wanted this.. Its so damn expensive, i don't even spend so much on my usuals.. Its so difficult to swallow man.. Not easy to earn the moolahs you know? *Heartpain*

Got selected to be SAPE for the upcoming workshop.. Hopefully thru this it make my resume looks better.. Pray that the oldies will leave me alone to do my job.. There is no need to be green eyed or whatsoever.. If anyone have the capabilities to hold that position they will be promoted.. likewise if the promoted one suck at his/her job they will be back to square one then.. Anw i'll take this chance to prove to ppl that i'm not some bimbo (ppl always say & think i'm one) n i do have the abilities to lead n take charge..

Gotta get ready soon.. Gonna meet Dumbo for some pat-tor-ing.. Loves

Footprints in ones life

2009-05-15T12:44:00.002+08:00

Wondered why someone would give up someone of best wife/best husband material for someone new?? It sets me thinking the pain of the person being broken down becos of selfish reasons of their partner. To think that i have gone thru so much to be back to normal, but of cos with the help of the special ppl in my life! (My best friend, my GP, God, Family, Friends...) Initially i would curse and swear, but after awhile i got tired and tot that it was pointless of it and soon enough i recovered well.. I think its really difficult to see and when u know both parties, then u see their new gf/bf, while the other is still in pain.. Wondering if those idiots feel gulity even.. I just hope my dearest friend will recover well enough to brave thru this test to her.. and i know she will meet someone new, that will treasure and love her..

Dead.Boring.Blog

2009-05-10T23:07:00.004+08:00

L.A.Z.Y is the answer to this Dead.Boring.Blog..
Considering if i should change to Wordpress for more private blogging though..
But i love my blog.. Ease to use.. The colours, theme..
Maybe i'll try but meanwhile i'll still be using this blog..

Some quickie updates:

(1) Sunny has been sterilised (still very MAN ok!!) due to his prostate problems, was peeing bloody pee..
(2) WE have been together for a year!! (17th April)..
(3) Piggy passed away on 20th April =(
(4) Joyce is pregnant!! She said she wants a square tummy & a "Jack in the box baby", but regretted almost immediately and freaked out!! Haha!! She's going back Philippines soon too =(
(5) Bangkok Trip confirmed!! (a "gift" from baby for our 1 year Anni)
(6) Addicted to Hell's Kitchen
(7) Volleyball training back at SPANS with Coach now..
(8) We have 2 new friends joining us at the clinic! I can learn french from our new Vet!!
(9) Alliance is going to get new freaking expensive jerseys.. (i dono y so ex)
(10) I'm such a boring person that i can't think of any updates anymore..

HAPPY MUMMIES DAY!! I LOVE YOU MUMMY!! YOUR THE GREATEST!! XOXO!!

Vicky

2008-10-01T02:40:00.002+08:00

Our sweet lil Vicky has gone to a better place..
Without pain, without sadness n sickness.. But..
A land with happiness n many doggie friends to play with..
Sorry i wasn't there to say my goodbyes..

Happy 5 Months; Decisions decisions

2008-09-17T00:17:00.001+08:00

This blog looks so "dead", so lacked of updates.
Well.. its just resting..
I'm just too busy with everything.. in a good way!

Happy 5 Months Baby!!
Sounds so short but felt so long..
And we'll still going so strong =D
Love ya!! xoxo

Had been so damn busy with everything seriously..

Started on my new job!!
Love it!!! Enjoying every minute of it!!
If u don't know yet..
I'm working for "Vet, Fandi, Dr. Lee, YeeLin.." at her clinic
Very thankful towards her.. She's a very understand n supportive boss to have..
Seeing all the Doggies n Kitties every work day.. Loves!!
We have some PRs living in the clinic..
Will take pictures of them soon!!
Love em all!!

School is busy!!
Projects.. Deadlines.. Tutorials..
STRESS OUT!!
But my project mates made everything so much better =)
Nice to have them around!!

Family is great!! Happy happy!!
They seems to like Baby alot!!

My favourite sport.. Volleyball..
Rip curl sucks because shit things happened..
On a happier note.. i'm joining SIM for trainings!!
Nice people there. Hopefully i'll get to represent SIM for IVP.
Have pains n aches every part of my body!!
Alliance should start training soon!!
Looking forward to every volleyball session!!

This post is really not constructive at all..
Cheers to everyone!!

Lost for words

2008-08-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

Life seems to be so dramatic at times..
Not trying to make things big..
But i feel so these few days..

Trying to stay positive alone is so difficult..
Glad that i have so many God sent angels to be with me..

Just when i was about to give up volleyball for good, God spoke to me..
Through my team mates, who cared for me..
And through the game with IK last Sunday..
Was really stunned that i was chosen to start the game and last all 4 sets of it..

YeeLin was the one who talked me through everything..
She encouraged me, spurred me on..
Supported and encouraged the whole team..

Somehow i felt that when everything is all so right..
Shitty things just got to happen..
Mum wasn't happy when i mentioned about JB trip for Malaysian Opens..
She thought i was lying about it so that i can go and play or fool around..
That led to many other issues..
I'm not here to complain, but i just couldn't see eye to eye with on these issues.
Like:

Studies.. I was blamed for being lousy at my studies, Mum even warned me that if i would to fail again, I'll just have to stop schooling.. (apparently my efforts wasn't acknowledged by her in anyway)

Volleyball.. She felt that i was putting my priority in volleyball..
Yes i did. I used to do that. But i no longer can.. Reducing to only attending my volleyball matches now..
I'm only trying my best at the passion that lives inside me..

Work was affected too.. Because i was too occupied with many things..
She felt that i'm always not at home..
Not doing my part in the family, looking after Sunny, not around to be "seen" much at home
So bad that i have to quite my job with MDS and probably further reducing the amount of volleyball time in order to be at home more and to be seen.

To Joe & Geo:

So sorry that because of my personal reasons, i have to stop working with you guys.
I've really enjoyed and took pride with what i did with MDS. Thankful that you both have been concerned and willing to teach me so much. I really felt bad for not committing as long as i could. But i felt that was the only way to please my family. Hope that you both will not take it to heart.
Thanks so much for understanding =)

I haven't gave up on going JB..
Dad was supportive.. But he told me to try not to go for it so as not to upset my mum again..

Well.. maybe parents do have their own reasons in doing things their way..
As children, we can only try to follow as they wished..
But would we lose our character at the same time?
I wish not.. And hope that I'll be acknowledged that I'm already a grown up.
A mature person who can decide things on her own, by herself, but of cause with the support of my loved ones..

God please guide me..

I pray....

p/s: yeelin, cindy, baby, gp: thanks for hearing all my rants and standing by me..

Freaking Random

2008-07-30T23:17:00.003+08:00

Being a random queen, i shall live up to my name..
This post shall be damn random

Finally local lectures have started..
Great to see my fellow school mates once again..
BUT only some..
Was in holiday mood when foreign lectures started..
FORCED myself to attend sch all alone.. Damn sian can..
But of cos i did skipped a few to sleep in.. Haha!!
However, from now onwards i'll make it a point to get to every single lesson..
I'm serious!!
Its really not easy for me to wake up early in the morning to get to being..
Working, Schooling & Volley balling is really not easy.. Its really tiring..
Still i don't want to give up any of these 3..
Hopefully i'll complete it with church.. Missing EDGE Services..

Working with MDS is really quite enriching..
Learning from Joe & Geo on how to get the biz going is really interested..
Best of all i'm doing wat i love..
Handling all those pretty apparels that MDS brought in..
Both my employers are very patient in teaching me..
They gave me no stress, no pushing and rushing..
Helping me when i just started off..
Great experience!!!

School has got better this semester comparing to the last..
Probably becos i know i'll be happier in school now..
With all the support of certain friends in school, baby, GP, family, friends and team mates..
I know i'll have them to lean on whenever i'm too "tired"..
And i don't have to be weary of certain issues..

Volleyball is like my batteries, playing keeps me going..
Further more our team is getting stronger after each training and friendly matches..
Everyone of us are warming up even more than before..
Team spirit is in place!!
Go! Alliance Go!!

Anyway Open Cup is just like this Sunday!!
Here's the schedule
3rd Aug (Sunday) 2pm Vs Republic Poly (RP) @ Jurong West Sports Hall
7th Aug (Thursday) 8pm Vs The New Team (TNT) @ Presby High
10th Aug (Sunday) 2pm Vs International Khakis (IK) @ Jurong West Sports HAll
15th Aug (Friday) 8pm Punggol Sec (PGS) @ Jurong West Sports Hall

Rip Curl Beach Volleyball is on 30th Aug..
Will be playing together with Baby, Eliz & Marcus..

Missing church damn badly..
Somehow i don't feel that purify when i don't attend services..
Will find the time to go soon..
But meanwhile i'll just be disipline to do my quiet time..

Another factor that is keeping me going is the LOVE i get from my Dumbo & Family..
Dumbo loves my family, loves sunny, loves me!!
They call it "Ai Wu Ji Wu"..
My family loves Baby.. Esp Mummy and Sunny..
Daddy is opening up more now.. give him sometime ba..
Maybe dads are meant to be "cool"? Ha ha!!
And Granny thinks he's cute.. Haha!!

Can't wait to see My Dumbo on friday night!!
Going to his match at JWSH, then crash at his hall/hall camp all the way to Monday.. =)
Missing him so much.. xoxo
Haven't seen him for 3 days le..
Nothing compared to his trip to Hawaii back then..

By the way Baby brought me to Hay Dairies Farm, then to the Zoo, then to Holland V for candle light dinner, then to East Coast for some romance at the beach =). Will update again when i got the pictures from him..

Gotta crash soon!!
Long day for me tml..
School, Work, Volleyball!!!

Dead Tired!!!

2008-07-18T01:27:00.002+08:00

I'm so DARN TIRED!! Totally Zombified!!

School have started since Monday..
Means i got to wake up at 7.30am for lessons in the morning..
Trying my best to get used to the "sleep early" & "waking up early" routine..
Felt kinda lost on the 1st day of school.. seeing so many unfamiliar faces ain't helping..
Got to repeat the 3 subjects i screwed in Sem 3.. Sianness.. =_=
Thank you GP for helping print my notes all the time!!

Some of u may not know it..
I've proud to say that i'm 1 of MDS' staff..
Learning new stuffs every working day..
Its kinda tiring to have to go to school everyday n then goin to work straight after..
But i'm happy working with Geo & Joe..
They are seriously 2 damn hardworking people..
Like them, i take pride in my duties..

I love to be freaking busy than to have nothing to do..
Like self torture huh..

Had friendly with SHSS Alumni in the evening..
We did pretty well compared to the 1st friendly we had..
But i'm aching all over now..
I think i really really injured this time, sprains, aches, pains, everything!!
Age is really catching up with me..
I know i'm not that that old..
But my injuries i had from be4 kinda taking a toil on my body..

Happy Happy Happy!!!
Dumbo & I have been together for 3 months already!!
Its not that that long yet.. but its a damn stable n happy one!!
I'm so glad that i have such a understanding, supportive, caring, loving bf =)
Baby says he's goin to bring me out on a "date" to "celebrate" tml..

Happie Bunny!!

2008-07-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

Been busy having fun fun fun!!

Volleyball, Shopping, Dating, Burfdaes, Gatherings, Beaching !!!

Finally Beach.Ball.Babes Debut 9Pm at night (7th July) just now!!
My family & Baby have been laughing non stop!!
Esp mum, she is always laughing at my silly pinned up hair!!
Baby kept laughing at the yellow mob on my head!!
Some friends asked, some friends watched but din managed to catch me..

Anyway will be starting work with MDS tml!! 20th will be the official day though.. Excited!!

School's starting real soon!!
Busy..Busy.. Busy..

Good days, Bad days, Normal random days...

2008-06-22T04:32:00.002+08:00

Good days, Bad days, Normal random days...

Been meeting friends and more friends recently..
Shopping, Gatherings, Wedding Preparation...

Mango Sales!!!
When crazy shopping with Ruiyi on Wed (18th)..
Morning all the way till night..
Got a new black adidas sports bra at 30% discount!! Thanks to her friend who got us staff price.
1 blue dress, 1 green tube top, 1 red tank top, 2 black and 1 red bags all from Mango sales.
At long last i altered my dark blue bootcut into a skinny..
Kinda into colors recently, maybe i got influenced by Dumbo too much.. he's too color-foo!!

Met Poly-mates after Ashtons (katong) dinner with the babe..
Has been a long long time since i met them..
Went Changi's T2 Swensens for dinner + supper..
Then T3 to walk ard, since nick n stud haven't been there yet..

Pictures:

Skool of IT

Went for volleyball freeplay on thursday(19th)..

Guess wat?!?!

I stupidly went to Spans without my tee n shorts..

Damn sian.. in the end i went home without playing..

Dono what was i thinkin then sia...

Celebrated Larry’s 25th Birthday (20th) at Roxy Square Steamboat… Yummies!!!
He’s got a nice girlfriend!! Friendly and funny girl!!
Then we went Gelare for waffles and icecream!! Chocolate Overloaded!!

Pictures:

The SIMians

Wedding Prep & Burfdaes-missed (21st)

Woke up damn early met Fidelia and the rest of the wedding Jie-Mei for the 1st time..
We went search for our bride’s maids dresses.. used up almost the whole day but still have not cfm if we getting the dress we wanted.. depending if they have got stocks..
Otherwise we got to go search for it again.. which I dun mind la!!

They are all nice and pretty ladies..
Anyway I think we got to meet of again to settle on the Sabo of the Groom and his brothers..

Had to miss both lovely girls' birthday party.. was too tired n started not to feel well after a long day.. sorry babes.. meet u both up soon to pass u the pressies..

THREE MORE DAYS!!!!!

I MISS YOU DUMBO!!!!

Messages:

Dumbo: Blog on my blog more can??!! Thanks for always being by my side, listening & tahaning

all my nonsenses, constant bullies & loving and caring for mi always!! I Love You!! xoxo

Eliz: Thanks for being there for me all the time, i know u care =)

Nat: Jiayou babe!! A wonderful new & exciting life awaits you!! Love ya!!

Danielle: Thanks for ur encouragement!!

Don: Jiayou too!! I'm just a call away!! God bless!! =)

Thank God for all these sweet loving people in my life!!

Urgh!!!

2008-06-18T04:20:00.003+08:00

Urgh!.!.!

No time with Dumbo leads to an Unhappie Silly...

Training was alrite tonight..
The guys said that all of us improved..
Thats good news..

Was watching ANTM Cycle 10 and received a sms from baby..
He's tired n busy n has no time for me today..
Not his fault though.. he din't choose to be this way..
But i cant helped feeling a lil empty..

Gotta wake up at 8am to meet Ruiyi for shopping later..
We're meet that early to drop by a few places today!!
Shopping shopping!!
Shall give all my shopping receipts to Baby since he din't have time for mi..
Right?!

Don't feel good..
Hope i'll be in a better mood when i wake up later..

Counting down.. S.E.V.E.N. M.O.R.E. D.A.Y.S.

Happy Two Monthiversary

2008-06-17T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happie Two Lovely Months Baby!!

It has been two months since our love have blossomed..

Enjoyed every single minute of this wonderful relationship with you..
Thinking back of how we started and got together on your birthday, not forgetting how u asked me to be your girlfriend..
Really made me smile over n over again.. Sweet!! =)

I Thank & Praise the Lord for sending such an Angel to me!!
Blessed us with love, care n experiences to share in this relationship.
Most importantly we share so much in common, which kept us goin all this while..

Even though we have been apart for 40 days already..
Even though we did not celebrate our 1st 2 months together..
Even though we might face disagreements in the past or future..
I know this relationship is STRONG..
Because the Great One up there is holding on to the relatiosnhip with us..

I Love You So Much!! *Muacks* + *Huggies*!!

Looking forward to your return in 8 Days!! =)

PMS

2008-06-15T03:22:00.004+08:00

PMS

Letters P.M.S. really drove me crazy this time..

Caused me to blow hot & cold to my Dumbo even he's far away in Hawaii..

Caused me to randomly got a bottle of hair dye in my drawer & dyed my hair myself for the 1st time. Using only my hands, no comb, no nothing.. i juz dyed it like the way i wash my hair!!

Caused me to be awake even when i'm damn tired with an aching body because i've juz painted my finger n toe nails pink!!

I'm Crazy & Random i know.. Haha!!

Baby is living like a rich bastard in Hawaii now..

He's driving this...

But not for long!!!

He's coming back in 10 Days!! Can't wait!!

I Miss U Baby!! XOXO

ALOHA!

2008-06-13T14:12:00.016+08:00

aloha to everyone!!

greetings from hawaii. this time you will see a special character blog. hahah... im jody's bf. =) just felt like doing something to her blog and this is the first time i'm blogging. her previous post was quite sad so friends out there please try to encourage her. i'm sure you agree with me that she isn't useless!! God made everyone with different capabilities and talents. i believe no one is useless in this world. =) baby!! whatever happens to you, i will be behind you and be your strongest pillar of support. i won't let you fall down. i won't leave you alone to go through all the problems and troubles you're having. WE will go through them together k. =) I love you!!

okok... shall just upload some pictures to the blog and tell u roughly what's happening in hawaii.

let me introduce to you my 2 best friends when i'm in hawaii. Moji the fat and playful cat and Sugar the cute and jealous dog. they are the ones that kept me entertained when i'm bored. Thanks pal!! =)

here are some pictures of waikiki beach.

the USS Arizona Memorial which is to commemorate the 1170 crew who died on the Arizona warship during the bombing of pearl harbor in 1941.

yup.. that's about it. next time then post more for you guys to see. =) anyway, so looking forward to going back to sg and meet up with jody!! yay!! 12 more days to that day!!

Sad.. Worried.. Vexed.. Sian.. Disappointed.. Upset.. Tears..

2008-06-13T01:36:00.003+08:00

Sad.. Worried.. Vexed.. Sian.. Disappointed.. Upset.. Tears..

When things r all so fine..
Bad news will always come with it..
But this time, its slightly different..
I no longer feel as bad as last time when all the shit stuffs happened..
I felt that there are so many loved ones supporting me, encouraging me..
Most importantly.. I know God will make a way for me and walk me out of all the problems and issues…
Still I’m only human, I do feel sad..

Studies

Anyway I went back to school to do enrolment today..
Turned out that I got to stay extra 2 semesters for 3 modules to grad from Uni..
Some of the modules are not being offered every semester, so I have to take 1 module in the 1st extra sem, and 2 modules in the 2nd extra sem, thus the delay in the extra 2 semesters.. No one is to be blamed but myself..

Since young I know I wasn’t the kind of kid who can study real well..
Not only I have to put in extra effort than other people, even if I did I still may not do as well as them..
I know I’m taking a longer route comparing with my friends or people around me, but eventually I know I’ll get to where I want..

Well.. Seriously, I have to admit that its sad to see all my friends leave me, graduating earlier than me while i remained screwed up.. but of cos I’m happy for them lah..
In fact Dad questioned me if I should continue studying.
I know he don’t want me to waste my time and money if I’m not cut out to study well.
I feel kinda upset being questioned this way, but I really don’t feel like giving up..

$$

Money is also a concern to me now..
Most of my pay are being delayed, which adds up to quite a huge sum..
Since I may not continue to teach my current tuition kids (for certain reasons), any small amount is considered important to me now.. Glad that my bad shopping habit I used to have is under controlled..

Volleyball

Donno if I’m gonna improve some more skill wise.. Not that I did real badly..
But I’m kinda losing the confidence I used to have..
Seems like I’m becoming stagnated, the rate of improvement seems to be decreasing.
Or maybe I just felt moody about things today, that’s y I’m thinking this way..
Besides my right knee is hurting quite badly..
I can feel the pain even when I’m kneeling down with my knee pads on, just imagine kneeling with out it.. GP adviced that I should get insurance which will cover my injuries, but I don’t think I can afford it anytime soon ba..

Seems like there is so much to worry.. So much to bother.. So much to think thru.. Sighzzzz….. Sian-ness…..
Such a long post.. But fill with screwed-ups..

Tell me..
Am i USELESS or wat???

There’s something to be happy about though =)
Dumbo is coming back in 12 Days!!

Feeling Damn Nua & Restless

2008-06-07T17:25:00.004+08:00

Had a very tiring week so far..
Nua & Restless...
Bad day at work yest, but Baby made it better..
Went Far East to walk around and got 2 Tees..
Saw ballet covered shoes..
Feels comfortable wearing it..
Should I get it? Considering..

Training on Thursday..
Guess what? Only 6 of us turned up.. =_=
Heard that most of them “fly plane” at the last minute..

Attended Pris’s 21st at her dad’s condo..
Its like a mini SIM gathering so to say..
Great company.. but I had to leave early cos I wasn’t feeling well

Feel feverish since yesterday..
Aching all over.. Migraine is killing!! Gastric feeling weird..
I guess I was too tired or perhaps stress over work.. with inconsistent meals
Even had to skip Edge today to rest at home..
Don’t even know if I would be well enough for Passion run tml..
Hate to be sick!! Still have to complete the invigilators assessments & claim form..

Dumbo is aiming to get his “Turkey” soon..
(he knows what I’m talking about.. right baby?!)

Picture: Taken after cake cutting at Pris' 21st

Countdown ticker: 18 more days till Dumbo's return =)

A Series of “Un”- Fortunate Events

2008-06-05T03:10:00.002+08:00

A Series of “Un”- Fortunate Events which turns out to be Funny!!

Got my results thru the RMIT’s site in the morning..
I did better than what I’ve expected.. Haha!! At least I din screw up everything like before.. but I did screwed-up 1 subject.
Furthermore, I had 2 of my Gentle Giants with me when I went thru my results check.
Gentle Giants = Our Almighty GOD and Dumbo Foo =)
Felt happy even though I did not pass everything, really thankful for the results I’ve gotten.. Its like a “Huge Stone” off my mind and chest..
Thankful for GP (another giant who has been always supporting me too), Dumbo and my other friends who prayed for me for my exams too.. The prayers meant a lot!!

ACCA Day 2

We didn’t have as much candidates as the 1st day, but we had candidates who seemed to be very blur that they sat at wrong number desk = making my life more difficult. Bur seriously its really an experience, I did learn how to handle situations better.. Invigilators under me still a lil blur, since most of them are newbies to the job..
“Things” happened in the office after the examinations which made us laughed so hard that we are kinda out of breathe!! Not convenient to let u people know what had happened.. Sorry..

Got a Grey Smurffie Tee for the Exams, peeps who knows me well should know that I’ve a very Tee-Less person.. Realised that I need more skinny jeans.. GP let’s go get our Levis Jeans together soon k!!

ACCA Day 3

Jody shouts: I’M SO FREAKING TIRED!!

I’m worn out to the max!! What can go wrong, went wrong, and turned out to be freaking funny. The day started when other invigilators from RK’s came over to attend our briefing and missed their own with RK. Then the rest of the invigilators proceeded to Block A with Chee Beng. We only had a trolley with us which means I did not have a trolley to unload the Question Papers (QPs) all the way up to level 5!! The only trolley was with Chee Beng. The QPs are FREAKING HEAVY can!! I was stronger of the 2 person (comparing Pearl and Me), she did try to help but we had other stuffs to carry with us. We did block invigilation today. A total of 3 levels in block A were used at RJC, which made me run up and down the 3 levels like a crazy woman, perspired like mad can!! Sounds like I had a great work out so far right? Next, the candidates were so lost as we had 3 different exam venues in RJC alone, some went over to RK’s side instead of our side, and others came over to our side instead of RK’s. Worst case of the day: The candidate got bounced around the 2 venues at RK’s till he was an hour late. Since it was his fault of what had happened, we decided to give him the full 3 hrs to complete his paper. Chee Beng and Hasri stayed for his extra time invigilation where Pearl and I rushed back to RELC to get the papers to telly. I was so damn tired at the end of the day I KO-ed in RELC’s office table. Slept for around 45mins, waking up only until everything was settled. Went home KO-ed again after having dinner till now. Anyway I was damn pissed with my invigilators today. Have a debriefing session after the exams, there were so many mistakes which were not supposed to be made. Simple things like NO BLUE INK for shading the CRS form. Guess what I was slapped with a CRS full of blue ink, coming from an experienced invigilator some more!! There more stuffs la, but decide not to disclose it. I’m a person who no longer get pissed that easily since last Dec le lo, so if I’m ever pissed at/with certain things, trust me, you got to stay as far as possible from me before I blow.

Irregular meals are causing my gastric to hurt again =(

Honeyed-Dumbo Pie sorry I haven’t been talking to you much recently because of my work commitment. You’ve so understanding and supportive towards my needs and never did complain that I have no time for you and I no longer can stay up to talk to you over msn or phone. Although you are like so far away from me now, still, I can totally feel your love, care and concern. I know you are very worried that I fell a lil ill that night, but don’t worry I’m fine ya!! Thanks for making me smile and the endless encouragement you gave me. I Thank GOD for having you, and the blessings HE gave to our relationship!! I LOVE U!! Muacks!!

Countdown ticker: 21 Days till Dumbo’s return!!!

US =)

Surprise from Hawaii!!

2008-06-03T01:51:00.004+08:00

Went to Beach on Sat to train up a lil for Velocity 2 on 2 mix..
Yiming was my partner!! Although we lost both matches, I’m still happy that we had fun!! We did our best.. Win as a team, Lose as a team!!

Had a friendly match with “The Force” @ Hougang Sports Hall..
I guess we did pretty well !! =) Improved a lot since Dec..
Most of the players from The Force are tall la.. Envy!! I wished I could be taller!!

ACCA Day 1

Being a SAPE wasn’t that easy.. Panicked a lil today.. but Pearl was there to guide me throughout the day.. Appreciate that!!
Invigilators wasn’t too bad.. Just some blurness here n there.. But overall they r quite nice ppl to work with =)

Someone gave me a SURPRISE!!
Reached home from work and saw a postcard placed on my lappie..
Dumbo sent me a postie from Hawaii!!
Since is a postie, there wasn’t any envelope..
So my parents read the whole msg wat Dumbo had written for mi..
Best of all the made fun of me sia!! But it was damn funny la.. *shy*
Well well that postie really made mi SMILE =)..

Ps: Baby I’ll be looking forward to walk with u side by side, hand in hand at Laniakea Beach, Hawaii!! =)

Countdown ticker : 23 Days till he’s back!!

Happy Day!!

2008-05-30T02:05:00.002+08:00

Today's a happy day!!

2 Great news!!

1) Baby is coming back on the 25th June.. flight tix booked & confirmed!!

2) Baby have decided that he is goin back to play competitive Volleyball, most prob representing NTU again!! What ever happens, i'll be very very proud of him!!

I'm sure we'll be busy with our own stuffs when he's back.. but i'm sure God will guide us through the relationshp =D

Had dinner at Junction 8's Cartel with Eliz, Guofeng & Joezer..
Freeplay at Spans after that.. Enjoyed today's play!! Kelvin said i seemed to be on form!!

I'm a Happy Bunny!!

Can't wait!! Or Not??

2008-05-29T06:42:00.000+08:00

Have u ever felt 2 different kinds of feelings/ emotions at the same time?
I'm kinda like goin thru it now..
Can't wait for this weekend!! But yet afraid for the next week to come..

Reason y i cant wait for this weekend is because
I'll be very occuppied till the 11th of June, thus making time pass faster, so that the number of days after my busy period will be lesser.. which means My Dumbo will be back soon!!!
Anyway Baby will be coming back about 3 weeks earlier than planned!! Great News!!
Reason being, his Silly is too love sick..

Reason y i don't want next week to come is because its HELL WEEK!!
Results officially out on the 4th!! Shit!! I'm really scared..

What i have from 29th May till the 25th June:

29th : Shopping + Dinner with vball friends, Volleyball Freeplay..
30th : Rot at home or maybe site visit to RJC to decide venue of control room..
31st : Beach training/play @ Sentosa, Friendly match with "The Force" @ Hougang Sports
Hall.. (Think i cant make it for Edge this week.. =( )
1st : Velocity Beach Volleyball Match (gotta report at 7.30am can!! wah lau damn early la!!)
2nd : ACCA Day 1 (10.30am to 6.30pm for almost all 8 days of ACCA invigilation)..
3rd : ACCA Day 2, Volleyball Freeplay..
4th : ACCA Day 3, Official Results of Exams (God please bless me with good results, no failings)
5th : ACCA Day 4, Friendly Match with SMU @ SPANS
6th : ACCA Day 5, Pris's 21st Birthday Party!!
7th : EDGE!!! (Friends please join me at Church!! But i think the rest having KL church camp)
8th : Passion Run / Velocity Beach Volleyball Match (provided we got thru 1st round)
9th : ACCA Day 6
10th : ACCA Day 7, Volleyball Training
11th : ACCA Day 8 (Last Day)

12th to 24th : Non busy period, friends please ask me out (in e process of planning with some friends though), tuition please start (Carmen & Carlyn time to study n homework again), more volleyball sessions please.. If not i'll really ROT!!

25th : MY BABY IS BACK!! YAY!!!

Anyway i've contacted Lihui, might be joining Team SIM.. Hopefully everything goes well.. =)

Gonna crash now!! xoxo =)

There's nothing my God cannot do

2008-05-25T18:21:00.000+08:00

Its a Great day to celebrate!!

The excitement i have, can't be explained!!

Went for ACCA briefing in the morning at RELC.
Felt the pressure of being a SAPE (Senior Assistant Presiding Examiner), its really impt not to screw up the exams ya know.
Then it was my turn to brief the invigilators under Pearl Jie Jie.
She couldn't be there, thus i did the briefing on behalf of her.
The reaction i got was expected, the people there din expect mi to be their SAPE.
They looked a lil lost at 1st, until i was introduced, by myself..
Maybe i din look old enough to be a SAPE ba, or the way i dress?

Met Nat Nat after briefing!!
Macus joined us for lunch and shopping!!
During so.. Baby Dumbo called n made the "Nutella Blind Date Crap Joke"
(apparently Nutella is Nat's nickname given by Mr FBG)

Nat came to church with me!! Great news!!
We had a combined church rally.. but i tot Edge's service was better..
Still.. i did enjoy the service la..
psst: i fell asleep for awhile.. haha.. so did my friends..
Service wasn't boring.. but i guess we were too tired..
My bad for falling asleep..
Worship was Great!! It's the 1st time i raised my hands so high to praise the Lord.
I used to be conscious of how dumb would i look if i did get so "high" into worshipping..
I was so darn wrong, it really felt so Good!!
Can't wait for Edge on Sat!!

Nat said something in the train.. "Seems that u r really happy with Bingguang.."
=D Honestly i'm really really HAPPY!!

There's nothing my God cannot do!!!

Boring entry after a month of no entry

2008-05-24T17:36:00.000+08:00

So sorry peeps.. Haven’t been updating.. Not that many people would bother reading my blog.. But I believe loved one who really cares for mi would..

Many things happened for this past month

Had my exams.. Hopefully I will not screw up again..

My best friend left for Thailand but I din get a chance to say goodbye to him..
Well just wan him to know I still care for him.. n wish him best over there..

Started filming for the show for channel 8’s Qiu Ai Da Zhan otherwise known as beach babes I think.. Its gona be aired on the 6th of June.. Many of my friends would have already discovered mi appearing on news on television or newspapers or magazines in bikini.. Haha!! Well it was really fun filming n working with the babes.. Made great friends there.. Love them to bits!!

I’ve found my special someone. He’s a Christian, who plays the guitar n electric guitar damn well!! (din’t know that at 1st), someone who shares the same passion with mi playing sports (esp volleyball, he’s a great setter!!) someone who is tall n big (so that I can pretend to be smaller in size.. haha!!) someone who loves mi/ care for mi/very supportive/ listens to mi/ be there for me/protect me/assure me.. (it goes on n on).. Someone who loves my dog.. Most importantly, he shares the same love & respect I have for God!! And he is Foo Bing Guang..(although I call him Dumbo most of the time).
The way we got together is so special.. knew him since sec sch but we din take much notice of each other back then.. until we prayed for each other.. then the miracle happened!!
Well well he’s in Hawaii now.. coming back in about a month time.. (Baby come back fast I miss u so much!!)

Went Taiwan for a short trip.. shopped a lot.. but owe parents a lot of money man!!

By now most of u should be falling asleep le.. my entries seems to be always so boring.. will try to update often so that I dun need to summaries my stuffs yeah!!

Happy Birthday B***!!

2008-04-17T16:32:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday BGB!!
Hope you will have a God Blessed Birthday this year!!

Anyway this post is delicated specially for YOU!!

Be Always Blessed
In God's Name
Never Will It End
God Promised That

Good Is Our God
U Being Special To Him
Anytime & Anywhere
Never Ever Fear
God Will Always Be There

Hope you'll like it!! =)) xoxo

The Jody Syndrome

2008-04-17T16:09:00.000+08:00

Joke of the day!!! HaHa!!!

The Jody Syndrome is a psychological condition sometimes seen in a normal human beings, affecting the brain and the heart such that the person is ruled by the heart to obtain articles of beauty and functionality regardless of the costs involved, even when the brain tries to override the decision. --Tan et al (2008)

Edge

2008-04-14T06:44:00.000+08:00

Exams r really coming soon.. I'm in a state of panicky..
Mugging sessions r so long and boring.. progress is damn slow la..
I'm peeling like a snake la!! Freaking ugly!!

Went Wala Wala @ Holland V on friday nite.. EIC was great!!
Songs played and sung rocked!
Turned emo towards the end of the nite.. teared thinking of someone..
Call my gd friend Brendan.. he really slapped out some thoughts that i have..
Well ended up deciding goin to church the next day!!!

Church @ EDGE was GREAT GREAT GREAT!!!!
Worship rocks!! Songs sung there was damn Awesome!!
Planet Shakers', Hillsong's!!
Peeps at EDGE were great too!! Friendly!! Sweet!!
I'm goint o make it a point to attend every Sat from now on!!
Sermon was so for mi yest.. Guess its one of God'd plan for mi to be there..
Learnt that we shld juz trust God in everything, ask Him for the way thru things..
Trust that He'll bring us to the other side of the river safe and sound..
Remember there will be storms.. but do have faith in Him..
Tests don't last forever..Storms often comes before break throughs..
Make it thru with Him!!

I sort of started to let the down side of life go after service yest..
Which is good!! Leaving me to concentrate on more impt stuffs like exams!!
Meanwhile walking in the light of God.. n i know i'll nv go wrong with Him..
Well.. Had long mugging session together with BG thru MSN n Webcam..
Got to know his *Ahem* DLS!! (figure out wat DLS mean ba.. haHa!!)

p/s: BG u can bribe mi ya.. U know wat to do rite? =) haha!!

Better and better

2008-04-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps!! Haven't been blogging for awhile.. so some random updates ya..
Too busy with stuffs yeah.. School, tuitions, volleyball (ma life)
Well well.. went for a few meetups with my friends.. (gene,agus,jings,adeline,bg)
Seoul garden feasting with Eliz... Pam's movie at Lido..
Alliance BBQ where i kinda got a lil tipsy.. red with rashes..
At long last been to Sentosa twice for tanning n beach vball.. which ended up getting real burnt..it's freaking painful can..even up till now..
Been shopping madly!!! (ma hobby).. heels, clothes, dresses, bags, sporty stuffs, gadgets..

Well i think life is getting better and better..
Have kinda tot things thru.. no point mi sulking when others r enjoying..
Shld just learn to take things easy, have more confidence of myself..
Care less of wat ppl thing so much of me.. besides we r no one to judge anyone..
So whoever who wants to try or continue to put mi down.. forget it..
Yes.. i do admit that i was really really effected by how and wat had happened.. BUT.. i have surrendered all to God.. n seek strenght from HIM..
Exams are ard the corner.. will be focusing on wat is most impt to mi now in order not to screw up again..*cross fingers*

Anyway i so wanna get my naval pierced.. but seriously afraid of the rejection and Keloids (overgrowth of scar tissue at the site of a healed skin injury)...
Been sometime since i did something major.. this might be the one..

Will be stuck at home mugging for the next few weeks until after my exams, ending in early-mid May.. so hopefully i'll update soon again.. Till then...

i'm not happy

2008-03-29T15:51:00.000+08:00

it sucks to feel so down..
i really want all things to go well.. but
i cant stay positive ..
i dono what's wrong..
i juz don't feel good..
and i'm nowhere near the word happy..

Roller Coaster

2008-03-20T17:33:00.000+08:00

Life is like a roller coaster. Filled with ups and downs, and sometimes without a choice..

My Ups & Downs

Volleyball:

I think i have improved over these few months. Comparing to where i was in Dec skill wise, i think i'm much much better. Of cos i still have room for improvements. Eg. My receiving skills, i was adviced to anticipate for the ball instead of reach for it too fast. The rest of it, its considered ok still.. And singing sessions with Eliz in the shower at SPANS, when everyone is gone.. HaHa!!

Family:

My family have been always there for mi, esp when shit happened last Dec.. I'm all well now!! Dad & Mum have been more opened to me with things. I know they wan mi to stay home more to see me more and have meals at home instead of outside, cos i fall sick easily when i don't eat much of home cooked food, prepared deliciously by Mummy. For Didi i know he cares, although we don't communicate as much, looking at the amt of time i'm at home. Lastly, Sunny the smelly boy who nv fails to cheer mi up with his cute, act innocent face =)

Studies:

I've promised myself, my grp mates, my friends, my family, my GP (actually all of those who really cared for mi) that i'll do my best in my studies. I'm goin to give my 101% effort in sch work. It juz seems like i've not been meeting up to expectations of others. Not becos i dun focus and work hard. I juz dono wat's wrong. But nonetheless i'm still goin to continue to reach my goal to do and work well in sch and work even harder if i have to.

Friends/Love ones:

Friends, u make some, u lose some. I thank God that i've been blessed with so many great friends. who had tide mi to all the bad times i had be4. Esp Eugene & Eliz whom i love to the max.. They have been with mi thru out the shit. Not forgetting Shijie my Lesbo we love each other like mad! MJM Dudes whom i bowl and supper with, bringing sm:)es to my face! Big sistas like Brenna & Wanxin who spend their precious time to guide and advice mi. GP & Brendan who spend time guiding mi back to Christ! Well friends that i did not mention, all ur love n help r appreciated ya!

Well those who have hurt me badly.. i do forgive, but i don't forget.. the impressions has already been there and i have to bear those impressions in mind so that i wouldn't get hurt again and at the same time i'll be able to share my experiences with those who need help.

Wants from Wishlist:

All thanks to GP! All my wants have be fulfilled (Guy Laroche wallet & Sony T300 yeah)! Gene the new Jam Session NDS game! Really thankful for the gifts!

Exposures:

Thankful that i've got a role in the Volleyball show with mediacorp. I'm sure it would be a great experience! Wat's more? I get to do it with Eliz on the same team! Catch us on TV ya! And i've been promoted to being an SAPE for invigilation.. At least my efforts are paid off. Of cos i'm thankful to be recognised too!

Relationship:

I kinda surprise ppl when they know that i'm not attached.. Thats becos i used to be very dependent on my ex bfs.. to say it in a not so nice way, means i have to be attached if possible.. But i guess i've grown out of it.. Its not that there are no guys goin after mi.. well i really do appreciate and feel honoured that i'm attractive in any way to them.. but its difficult for mi to have a bf now.. kinda feel that i'm not ready yet.. not that i don't wat to try out with "someone" but i guess i also need time before i really step into it.. Since i'm so busy now i dono if anyone can tahan my schedule.. I'll let God decide on this for mi..

Time management with busy schedules:

I really feel bad that i cant meet up with friends who have been asking mi out.. I'm really so so sorry.. I'm really super busy.. Its like usually in a week

Monday: Sch, Project, Tuitions

Tuesday: Sometimes project, then Volleyball

Wednesday: Sometimes project, Sch, Tuitions, nite runs which need to resume asap

Thurs: Sch, Project, Volleyball

Friday: Sch, sometimes project, maybe dance lessons(inspired by Step up 2)

Saturday: Sch, sometimes project, hopefully beach

Sunday: Tuition, Family Day

Moreover i need time to rest, do sch work/projects, the acting thing coming up will make it even worse.. Where got time to go out?! Friends who i get to meet, often do me favours by ferrying mi to n back from destinations..

All the above are of worst case scenario..

Christ:

I'm thankful to God that he has blessed mi with so many wonderful ppl in my life.. I know God is goin to make my life "BIG".. All i have to do is to pray, plan and step out with faith.. =)

MJM United!!

2008-03-06T14:07:00.000+08:00

Had a great weekend!! Thats was before i fell ill of coz..

Went to the doctor on Monday nite.. waited for nearly 2 hrs be4 it was my turn.. its really a torture man!!

So i found out that i've got virus infections that caused me to have a 39.8 fever, cough, flu, sore throat,bodyaches, head spinning giddiness, vomitting..

Was "bedridden" for 2 days.. Only felt better today.. but fever still maintaining at 38 range..

Was told not to attend sch or rather go to any place that have alot of ppl.. 1stly not to infect others, 2ndly my immune system is damn freaking low now, i can easily get sicker with any kind of tiny winy virus out there..

Did research and assignment work today.. felt so bad that i couldn't go to sch, couldn't not attend project meetings, had to cancel tuitions for carmen n carlyn, worst thing i cant play volleyball or excerise for the time being..

Was adviced not to excerise cos, if my heartbeat rate reaches 130, the virus infected might get into my heart.. by then my condition would be worse than now..

But anyway if by tml my fever is still not goin back to normal.. i shld be visiting the hospital soon i guess.. needless to say.. i've lost weight due to my illness...

I'll let the pictures to the talking from now on..

Bowling with MJM peeps + me in nerd specs (1st pic)

We were there pratically taking pictures all the time la.. dun even look like we r bowling
Jason was suspose to be with us.. but he was ill and had to leave earlier..

Dinner @ Astons the next day....

Supper @ Mr Prata the same day...

Please take note of the following links

Its about this Dad n his Son doing Ironman/trialaton together.. But the thing abt the son.. he's not "normal".

In the videos you will see how and what the Dad went thru in order cross the finishing line..

Its super touching.. teared like mad.. i felt so "small" after watching, becos till now i've done nothing as great to wat God n this Dad have done..

Never say you can't do it.... cos YOU CAN!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-8TT7RVPOw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPLCaAu_H2U&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDnrLv6z-mM&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8gm7XwtIJdM&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cS596VsNEOE&feature=related

Bloody Sick

2008-03-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so bloody sick now.. Fever, flu, cough, sore throat, headaches.. having fever but yet feel darn cold even i'm in layers of clothes.. the monthly visits made it worse.. visiting the doc later..

Have got much to updated but feeling too weak to do so.. will update once i'm recovered fully ya..

Get Over It!!

2008-02-28T01:31:00.000+08:00

The phrase to remember when things go wrong is: "Get over it!" Have you been hurt? Get over it! Have you been betrayed? Get over it! Have you failed? Get over it! Paul writes, "In everything give thanks." In reversal, give thanks. In heartache, give thanks. In poverty and in prosperity, give thanks.

Come on, stop hiding from success because you're afraid to fail. Failure means you're a learner, not a loser. Stop fearing risk! Take God's hand, step out and fulfil His purpose for your life.

Power of your Love...

Well Trained

2008-02-23T15:54:00.000+08:00

I'm really really tired...

Body clock is getting kinda weird... only cant seem to feel tired till the wee hours.. only to feel the tiredness the next morning.. n today i felt Freaking Tired the whole day.. even now..

Tiredness = caused by School + Projects + Research + Volleyball + Tuition = ALL WORTH IT!!

I'm happy that i'm tired, cos i'm really doing things that i enjoy... Contradicting rite?

Did i mention how fun was Volleyball yest? It was Super Uber Duper FUN!!!!!!

"Celebrated" Xingyi's Bday at Central's Waraku. Had fun!! Great food! We Lou-ed Hei!! Yums!!

i miss eliz..

i miss eugene..

i miss shijie..

i miss beach..

i miss volleyball..

i miss shopping.. =)

random updates

2008-02-20T17:41:00.000+08:00

Been kinda busy but overall i'm feeling gd right now!!

Things kinda cleared up already.. Relieve.. Thank God!!

Waiting for Eliz to end her exams.. and we can start returning to sens' beach again!! Looking forward!! Think i'm becoming a vball freak..

Gotta buck up in studies too.. felt that i'm not doin to do in my revisions..
Room is in a MESS again!! Laundry not done too!! (i wash my clothes myself)
24 hrs a day is really not enough for mi..(God pls help mi!!)

Celebrated Cousin Anna's (Anna jie jie) birthday last Sunday.. had steamboat (ate like a pig) n we lou hei (salmon slice & abalone...yummies!!) again!!

Someone bring mi to the Air show please!!!

Sucha random n bo liao post again.. till then!! Chaoz!!

Madness

2008-02-16T12:32:00.000+08:00

Had a UBER madness week.. i'm dead tired n fell sick.. Did not really take care of myself

Really felt bad, cos i've not been attending project meetings n tuition twice..

Think i shld have a healthier lifestyle from now on. Rest earlier, eat healthier, workout more..

Working at Xpress was crazy.. no time to even breathe.. still have to be disturbed by some tiko uncle..yucks!!
Busy busy busy from start till end..

Received a bq of flowers though.. haha.. thanks to that someone.. appreaciate it! I know watever i feel or think matters to u alot.. so take things slowly ba.. time will tell n show everything ya =)
My believes & expectations r really impt to mi, so i juz hope u'll understand..

Been kinda stress with work from sch too.. afraid that i would not reach the expectations of others n myself.. but i've really been working hard on it, doin my best.. will continue to do so..

Felt that i'm kinda too occupied with stuffs till i dun even have time to hang out with friends, let alone rest.. but since i'm already into it, i have to commit to it..

I'm only goin to get busier, so peeps out there, if i do not go out with u all, pls take note that it wasn't on purpose..

This is a freaking boring post la.. HaHa!!

My Thoughts

2008-02-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

We spend far too much time crying over spilt milk. Rather than giving attention to the most important assignment we have every morning - our choice of an attitude - we waste our time and energy on things that cannot be changed.

Being alone isn't always a bad thing. In fact there are times when it's absolutely necessary in order to hear from God.

Learn to understand the difference between being lonely and being alone. When God sidelines you consider it an honour, glean all you can, then move to the next level.

The good news is there's no such thing as a purposeless trial! Each trial is designed to launch us to a new Spiritual level. The interesting thing about our trials is they're custom made; they have our name on them.

So you can't always avoid getting hurt. But God can give you the grace to re-evaluate the situation and realise that the person you thought was your enemy may have been a friend in disguise. God will never permit His plans for us to be sabotaged by somebody else's actions.

God loves to turn our negatives into positives. And while none of us enjoys suffering, it takes us to levels of understanding that, left to our own devices, we'd never reach.

The bottom line is this: when you're weak in certain areas you need to steer clear of anything that feeds into them.

Sm:)e

2008-02-11T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps!! Don't worry ya.. i'll be fine n still be happy!! =)

Learning to chill & not to take things too hard from now on..

I have a choice to be smiling rather than tearing..

Thanks for all the love you all r showing mi!!!

Gonna be busy this whole week.. will update as soon as i find the time to do so..

CNY Day 2

2008-02-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

Boring day for mi yet again... CNY isn't as fun as it used to be..

Juz return home from Ah Long Pte Ltd.. Laughed alot..Freaking lame la..

Still its an emo day for me.. been upset this 2 days.. kept thinking abt recent events.. and teared..

Feel so lousy even though ppl have been telling mi that i'm attractive enough.. n i deserve better guys.. Guess its because i don't have much confidence left..

But i know its not goin to be permanent.. its juz a sudden stir of emotions..

Its not that i've nv tot of getting back, but thats goin to hurt more ppl.. n i dun want that to ever happen..

Was thinking alot in the bathroom juz now.. now i'm kinda lost for words..

God please help mi.. i'm gonna lose all my strenght soon..

I don't want to be alone anymore, but yet i'm not ready to accept another person into my life..

"Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind."

CNY Day 1

2008-02-08T14:23:00.000+08:00

Tiring day.. wouldn't say its boring.. but its not that exciting either.. the festive mood seems to be missing. it gets quieter n quieter each year..

went to mama's place for lunch, grand uncle's place to pai nian, aunt's place to gather played with nephew, then headed home..now u know y its not exciting rite?

My knees hurts still.. injuries + heels made it worse..

waiting to go to the movies later.. meanwhile picz up!

Not much pics today, the rest were busy winning.. Haha!!

Reunion

2008-02-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

Had reunion dinner with gong gong & ma ma juz now.. dinner dishes were normal but its the company that matters..

My Lovely Family =)

Count down mousey year at cousins place.. Lau-ed Yu Sheng..

Cant wait for more ang-baos collection tml!! More moolahs please...

Took some zhi lian pictures..

its suspose to be a special day..
i've lost u, but i'm happy for u..
i'll move on =)

solely mine

2008-02-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

the blog is not quite done up yet all thanks to my html skills..

thanks eliz for creating this blog for mi!! Luv ya!!

so many things have had happened.. gd ones, bad ones.. but i feel blessed by god still
im happy that i'm back to the old, but better me after so many things had happened.. e happy n cheerful me

well i won't be blogging with perfect english, no offence to anyone i would ever blog abt..
this is a place where i can expression myself freely.. anything i wan.. its solely mine..